For so much of my life, I was trying so hard. Trying so hard to force all the things I thought were "suppose to be". I was suppose to go to college, meet someone, get married and buy a house. Isn't that what everyone does? Well, I did just that. I was forcing everything because I wanted it so bad, and I wasn't patient. I ended up pretending to be happy for many years. To make a VERY long story short, I went through two of the worst years of my life, went through a divorce, then dated someone right after and had the relationship from hell. Finally, I took a vow to myself to stay single for a year and train for Ironman. I did just that, and it was exactly what I needed. I became independent in everything I did and found out what I wanted for my life. I wasn't worried about finding someone else. I planned my life for me, as if I was going to be by myself forever. I worked five jobs and did everything I could to support myself financially, emotionally and spiritually. Without looking, a new and amazing career came to me and an amazing man. I didn't have to try to move to Madison. Everything worked out naturally down to the last detail. I didn't have to try to find a guy. Things with Nate and I worked out naturally. We haven't had to try. It has just worked out. This is how it should be! If you let go, have faith, and focus on you and what you want, it will come to you. Make yourself some goals, but also don't look too far ahead that it makes you worry. I know how this feels, and it is a horribe cycle to be trapped in. Do something each day to work towards your big goals, but truly take it one day at a time. It will come to you. It will happen without you even trying.
I had a wonderful weekend with Nate's family. It was his brother's wedding, and it was the perfect day. It was really fun to get dressed up together, and I got to spend a lot of time with his awesome mom! I instantly felt comfortable with his entire family. It was like I had known them all forever. It was so natural. Another thing about Nate and I that don't have to try for! I don't know how it could get any better, but it keeps happening!
On Sunday, I did a half ironman relay with my friends Beth and Clare. I was the swimmer and swam 1.2 miles in 42:30. This is the fastest I have ever swam that distance, so I was real happy. Beth biked her little heart out and Clare anchored us and was 4 minutes from her best time! It was a great day to spend with my two friends I hadn't seen in a while. Nate, his mom, and his mom's boyfriend, Tom, all came to watch me. I thought that was so thoughful because we were up pretty late for the wedding the night before, and I was just swimming, so they couldn't really even see me. It made me swim harder knowing they were there though. It made my day.
My week at work is busy, but not too busy. One of my clients is moving to New York, so we are trying to work out every day before she leaves to use up her sessions. It has been really fun kicking her butt each day! I am going to miss her when she is gone!
I swam 8.5 hours last week. My goal was 10, but I didn't have access to a pool on Friday or Saturday, so I did it in 5 days! On Saturday, I did ride 25 miles, so I suppose I can count that as the other hour and a half. Yesterday, I made the goal to do 500 push ups, and I did it! Boy, am I sore today! I broke it down throughout the day. I did 10-25 each time until it added up to 500. It was fun to do with my clients. I know what you're thinking... I am crazy!! And you are right!!!
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